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Too much.

"I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go." Abraham Lincoln Driving to Target last Friday afternoon, I switched on MPR radio as per usual and heard mid sentence a mention of 26 dead, 20 of whom are children......elementary school shooting....lone gunman....teachers dead.... I took a gasping breath, almost cried and switched immediately to a Maroon 5 song talking about how his body keeps on telling him yes. "Not today, not now." I said out loud, to myself. It was too much. I have two boys in elementary school and one in a very public preschool. This happened to them, far away. This won't happen here. To me. The illusion of safety is a dangerous one. I used to think that tragedy happens to other people, people I don't know. Not me. Or I thought that I'd paid my dues in life already and not another bad thing could possibly go wrong. Until I had Dermot. Until I felt the grief, over and ove